Listening to: TOKiMONSTA - Sore
Eating: anti-depression pills. seriously. i took too much.
(warning: bad grammar ahead)
-War at Lahad Datu, Sabah (Malaysia)-
well, this is the reason why i was inactive for several days/weeks/idk. war. at Lahad Datu (LD). um, it's kinda hard to explain this...
i am currently living at Kudat (KD), which is um... well, far away from LD. but since the terrorists from the Philippines invaded LD, the war happened there and more and more terrorists came to Sabah. they reached Sandakan, Tawau, Semporna, and other places near to the sea. my family and i were terrified that they would come to KD too, so we took shelter at my aunt's place at Kota Kinabalu (KK). it's much safer there, for a while. because there aren't much safer places here, though. if we ran to Beaufort (or Tenom), we'd be less safer there cuz it's closer to the sea, too. sigh. we were there for almost (or more than) a week, and then we went back home to KD because we wanted to secure our lovely/shitty house away from the terrorists. yeah, although the war is still happening at LD, we still wanted to protect our house. cuz... um, it's like, it's got some stuff that we really needed for the future.
and after we stayed there for a few days, we went back to KK to visit our cousins who just ran away from their home at LD. oh, the pain. the painful feels. all of them. one of my very young nieces were injured (and currently in the hospital still), and my uncle- ugh. nevermind. so many feels. my tears are soaking my face like a fucking huge river. after i saw their faces, i was just like, "ugh i really wanted to..." but my heart felt too heavy for that thing. sigh again. and then my family and i went back to KD again. and now i am here, sitting on my godawful fucking chair, typing this journal for about, almost midnight. it's monday tomorrow, but i wanna stay awake with my kitchen knife beside me just in case if there's a crazy fuckhead terrorist budged in and aim his sniper at me. heh. i'm just kidding. i got no knife with me. i only got my mom's fabric scissor right beside this laptop. i hear my neighbor's retarded dog barking loudly outside the house (to be honest, i don't really like dogs a lot. they're kinda... hard.) yawning right now. like, three/four times in a row.
so... yeah, okay.
i think that's it.
i don't know what else to type here.
so, um.. good night, everyone. i wish all of you are safe with your family. be strong and safe.
and also, i got a really hipster-ish sketch of some of our fav hipster EDM artists, and i will be uploading them soon.
and other stuff.
well, goodnight, guys.